November 4, 2020

For What It's Worth

 

Today we woke up to an uncertain outcome. Many are in a state of unrest, anxiety, disappointment, division.  As I got caught up on emails and connections this morning my thoughts and spirit were moved by a song from the past.  I was taken back to my childhood – while young I was aware of the period of unrest, anxiety and division.  We lived in Ohio at the time of Kent State.  The scars of war affected many and this was followed by racial tension when we lived in Milwaukee during the time of “desegregation’ with forced bussing in the schools which brought unrest, anxiety and division to personal, community and societal levels.  This song remained a spiritual anthem for the country for over a decade and was a call for people to stop – stop and really look at “what was going down”… ”Paranoia strikes deep, into your life it will creep, it starts when you’re always afraid” … and a reminder that “nobody’s right if everybody’s wrong”.

I listened to that song several times.  Quite a few memories came back; many thoughts flooded my mind.  First, I was reminded “What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun (Ecclesiastes)”.   Yet while change is one of the only constants of life along with uncertainty and disappointment, there is an even bigger more powerful constant… 

Hebrews 13:8   Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.

Malachi 3:6   For I the LORD do not change; therefore you ARE NOT CONSUMED.

Psalm 33:11  The counsel of the LORD stands forever, the plans of his hear to all generations.

Revelation 22:13  I am the Alpha and the Omega, the first and the last, the beginning and the end.

It is through the Constant of the Great I AM and His love that we can have unwavering security, certainty and peace no matter circumstance.

 

Which led to the second stream of thought as I came back to those lyrics… “Stop children what’s that sound, everybody look what’s going down”… ”Paranoia strikes deep, into your life it will creep, it starts when you’re always afraid” … and a reminder that “nobody’s right if everybody’s wrong”. And the words UNITY and LOVE provoked my mind and my being.  There has never really been a time without division, some level of anxiety or uncertainty in this country  - war for independence, war for individual rights and freedom, war AGAINST slavery and FOR human dignity, war against racial holocaust, unrest for equality, cries for right to life, cries against injustice, extreme “passionate protest” of domestic terrorism.  Somehow WE the people were able to overcome by choosing understanding, compassion, love, hope, faith in each other while holding on to FAITH in the Father. We chose to view our neighbor, our fellow citizens, as those who may have different views yet a fellow human who deserved respect.  We chose to be responsible and realize that our actions must not be based on paranoia resulting in destruction and division.  We chose rather to use our disappointment and our energy to POSITIVELY affect those around us and in our community resulting in RESPECT and UNITY.

It is my prayer today for each of us to STOP AND LOOK AROUND, to not allow the PARANOIA creep in as we fear outcomes or as once again circumstance around us shakes emotions, to CHOOSE RESPECT and UNITY, to find the ability to rise above and express or perform actions that BUILD not divide, to LOVE ONE ANOTHER as HE FIRST LOVED US.  I pray for this nation… yes.  BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY I PRAY FOR EACH OF OUR HEARTS.

2 Corinthians 13:11  Finally, brothers and sisters, rejoice!  Strive for full restoration, encourage one another, be of one mind, live in peace.  And the God of love and peace will be with you.

Ephesians 4:32  to be mad new in the attitude of our minds.

Philippians 2:3  Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, Rather, in humility value others above yourselves.

Romans 14:19  Let us therefore make every effort to do what leads to peace and to mutual edification.

Psalm 133:1  How good and pleasant it is when God’s people live together in unity!

March 28, 2020

Use your words.....


Overwhelmed. Tired. Emotional. Determined. Broken. Release. Wept. Pause. View. Realize. Perspective. Seek. Mindful. Intentional. Reset. Open. Floodgate. Begin. Forward.

It’s been several weeks now that life has been being lived in a time and world that we could have not fully comprehended prior.  These weeks have caught up with me. 
Professionally I function in an environment surrounded by amazing people - we are constantly meeting immediate needs, diagnosing, treating, training, assisting, nurturing, giving, encouraging, solving, monitoring... going.  We compartmentalize our lives, suppress feelings and needs, build walls inside our minds to focus on job-duty-and mostly the well being of the patient.

But….
These weeks have caught up – PANDEMIC – daily numbers increase, inadequacies of a system are being exposed, suffering increases, shortages, hoarding, isolation, fear.

These weeks have caught up – PANIC AND HYSTERIA – ring out with constant “coverage” and “news” that feeds on itself and focuses and “reports” devastation, desperation, disheartened.

These weeks have caught up – the realization that ‘temporary measures’ may not be so temporary and all of us - professional, family, educational, retail, supply, medical – ALL OF US – are having to navigate living life in a different world.

These weeks have caught up – the compartmentalization, the suppression, the walls… were breached by tears.  My mind and my heart acknowledged a growing list:
- my inadequacies in meeting needs at work- for clients not only in their treatment but in their isolation
-the exhaustion of trying to do a job within the reality of many limitations and knowing what is to come
-being with an awesome team that not only supports those they serve but continually adjusts, dives in, accommodates and does all it takes to meet that need while helping each other as well
-seeing and feeling … Knowing - the toll that all of it is on each of them (and me) on the inside and yet it’s all pushed further down because the need and the job grow
- my inadequacies in my family role – emotional and physical weariness sometimes don’t leave much in the tank for the most important roles in my life as wife, mom, daughter, sister, friend
- my personal fears that cause me to isolate myself physically and emotionally from others
-guilt – don’t have the energy to interact once I leave the workplace, the dust builds, the clutter grows, I’m tired, ….
- Did I say fear? – for me, I see reality up close daily, I’ve also personally lived what many consider to be their greatest fear and while I know with faith and God’s promise and grace it was survived – even the possibility of walking that path again … I can’t breathe when fear grabs me.

These weeks have caught up –
As quickly as the tears came, they ended and the words began:
Overwhelmed, fear, illness, need, inadequacy, isolation, hopelessness, negativity, stupidity, partisan, disaster, pandemic, suffering, tired, desperate, devastation, weariness, need, helplessness, loneliness, uncertainty, suppress, compartmentalize, failure, division, broken, conflict, anger, frustration, blame, loss, death, distancing, urgent, despondent, sorrow, empty, numb,  gloom, hurt, …
The words continued:
Care, sacrifice, resilience, survival, help, treatment, honesty, openness, compassion, strength, support, generosity, ingenuity, thoughtfulness, kindness, humanity, presence, perseverance, renewal, community, resolution, patience, encouragement, trust, comfort, faith, love, hope, joy…
Words.  These units of language, labels, utterances, meanings for all that I’d been experiencing yet suppressing now identified or allowed to be expressed. 

I needed to “use my words”.  

In this “different world” at present we are surrounded constantly by the chaos of the expression of words for the events.   Perhaps what we need isn’t to have words bombarding us from the outside, but rather to allow words flow – openly, honestly, freely – real words  - flow from inside. 

It is only after we empty our thoughts and hearts of these words that we can allow words in that will renew and strengthen – even heal. But we need to be mindful and intentional which words we hold on to.

WORD.

I’m suddenly hit by the fact that there is one WORD that holds all I need -  THE WORD.    And the flood of words now continues …


Psalm 46:10 – Be still and know that I am God.

Romans 5:3- 5 – We also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.  And hope does not disappoint us because God’s love has been poured out into our hears through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.

Philippians 4:6-7 – Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus
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Isaiah 40: 29-31 – He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.  Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.  They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

Romans 8:38 – 39 – For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, or any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

John 16:33 - I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace.  In this world you will have trouble.  But take heart I have overcome the word!

Romans 8:26 - In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness.  We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.

1 Thessalonians 4:13ff – Brothers and sisters, we do not want you to be uninformed about those who sleep in death, so that you do not grieve like the rest of mankind, who have no hope.  For we believe that Jesus died and rose again.

Proverbs 17:22 – A cheerful heart is good medicine

Jeremiah 17:14 – Heal me, LORD, and I will be healed; save me and I will be saved, for you are the one I praise.

2 Corinthians 4:16 – Therefore we do not lose heart.  Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.